As I sit here I can clearly see your face
flashing before my eyes, the one that I want, the one that I desire but cannot
have, still I keep holding on to a dream, a small glitter of hope, wishing,
wanting and longing to hold you if just for a moment, but I can never reach
you, I can never have you, why? why won’t you just stop for a brief moment and
see what’s in front of you, instead you chase a dream of your own that can
never be fulfilled, and I am always there to comfort you when things go down
but yet still you will never see me as the way I want you to.
Every time I think of this situation, a surge
of emotion passes through my body and the tears begin to flow, but I cannot
confess this to no one else but myself... I constantly ask the Lord to take away
these feelings that I have for you, but no matter how hard I try, no matter how
much I try to hate you I always find myself falling back for you and in ways I
myself can never understand. Why do you have this hold on me? What about you
that I keep getting drawn to? Why are you the only one that is so hard to
forget? I need to find a way to remove myself from you, to forget your face, to
erase all memories of you but it’s so hard.
Life
is so funny, the moment I forget about you the moment that I move on will be
the exact moment that you realise what you lost, but it will be too late.
Because I will already have dealt with these emotions, I would have already
forgotten the memories of you. I would already found the one that feels the
same way for me as I do for them. So this is my goodbye to you, away from the
pain and heartache that you bring, my goodbye away from the hurt that I endure
wishing that you would see me instead of the beauties with no brains that you
often run after, my goodbye from you to a place of peace and acceptance, my
goodbye to you, and hello to a brand new beginning.
